Should I remember correctly this was the third time, no less, riding on an ambulance. Despite the newly discovered fact that NUH has better and more friendly staff, I'd rather not step in ever, after end of november this year.

Who would have thought another fainting spell to set in, after a hectic day, on my way home from school a week ago. The real cause boils down to my gastric discomfort which has been ongoing for a few consecutive days, and had ultimately accumulated to an overwhelming attack on that dramatic day itself.

After a recent consultation with a gastrointestinal specialist, an endoscopy test which has been more less expected was arranged. The scope was scheduled some day in november and hopefully the diagnosis reveals nothing worse. Yet, there's not the only worry or should I explain that an experience of the process itself 5 years ago had deeply set a irrevocable phobia in me. wat to do? understand that I can't run away from it eventually and it's always sound to have a thorough check... sigh.

"The fear of suffering is worse than the suffering itself." this is my only console till then.

Anyway, knowing that it's nearing the end of the year but hope I'm still in time to make a new resolution, well maybe this shall be a new resolution for december onwards then - quit coffee, or better still quit caffeine.

Praying that this incident is eventually nothing more than a blessing in disguise =(